“I Hate Myself”
This is something I hear from you folks who call, text or cam with me. Sadly, I hear it far too often. Society judges our kinks and fetishes in ways that causes us to hate ourselves at times. To hide in shame. To purge our toys, clothes, makeup, porn, etc. To lie to our partners and loved ones. To sneak around to have our needs met.
Society is Fucked Up, Not You
For a multitude of reasons that could go on endlessly, our society is not set up for people that are different. But let me tell you, Crossdressers, Transpeople, people who love panties, stockings, being spanked, blindfolded, medical play, being a cuckold, who enjoy BBC, SPH, cum eating and fucked with sex toys… ALL are perfectly normal. I PROMISE.
Why Are We Judged Us So Harshly?
This world is crazy. Our society has the most bizarre set of values and beliefs and they affect most of us who pass through LDW or who are reading this via Twitter.
Why I Am Writing This
Mistress Ally, the owner of LDW, read what I have on the front of my blog:
“Let me hold some of your shame; I will give you much of my love”
…and asked me to write a post about why I said/say this.
I love you who are reading this and who call me or email with me or Skype with me or cam or text with me. When you talk to me, I want you to know you are safe with your (legal) kinks and fetishes. I want you to feel good talking, role playing and masturbating.
You can leave your shame with me when you have finished your call and you get to take a whole heap of love and understanding with you.
You Are Free
If you are feeling suicidal or that life is horrible and you are scared of hurting yourself, please call the
I’ve accepted who I am and become as she told me not to worry about her husband or care what others think anymore. What I’m doing is harmless fun and it’s not hurting anyone. I’m sooo happy and greatful she’s accepted this as she has me buying and wearing women’s clothes she’s selling along with her measuring and fitting me in her old bras. Its safe to say I’m her sissy boy and she has her nails dug into me with no intention of ever letting me go as I’m wrapped around her fingers. With pictures of me with her phone dressed up as a girl all madeup with lipstick and wigs this is for real and forever. If I could and hopefully down the road I want her to keep me dressed up as a girl all the time. With fashion experience next month she’s going to have me wear new women’s clothes with bra/breast forms/makeup/wigs and lipstick. This is who I am and become as she said to accept this. I really am in a female lead relationship who belongs to her as well her sissy who has total control over me.
Miss Daphne,
Thank you SO MUCH for this post! As a guy who’s rode the roller coaster of self hatred way too long, it’s comforting to know that my lifestyle (I’m gay and enjoy SPH and cuckolding) is accepted in at least one little corner of the world (LDW). I believe that all of the Mistresses here are intelligent, open minded and not judgmental. That goes a long way for a guy like me. Keep up the great work!!?
There are no words, Aaron, that can convey my joy at knowing you “get” the post. I was worried people would just fly past it since it wasn’t a sexy or fap-worthing post, but you read it and I am so thankful you did.
I just got my first call from this post, too. I am thrilled it resonates.
You ARE heard and understood.
Bless you for commenting.
Miss Daphne,
I am always glad to share my thoughts. Sometimes I think LDW is more of a therapy outlet than a sexual outlet for me. thank you for providing a forum that allows us to express ourselves!
You are SO welcome, Aaron! And I agree on the therapy part. Sex CAN be therapy… and therapy CAN be sex. As well as each one separately.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts. They are much appreciated.
Good morning mistress. Love this post. I also love your saying, the first time I read it was one of the things that attracted me to you, aside from your obvious beauty. Since then we have met via Skype and all that I’ve thought you were from reading about you came to fruition. I can’t thank you enough for being you.
Bob, you have no idea what your words mean to me. Thank you so very much for “hearing” my words and my heart.
Thank you for spending time with me.
Thank you for writing these caring words, Mistress Daphne! I used to hate myself and think of myself as a freak until I learned to accept myself and came out of the closet as being male-to-female transgendered. Now I live en femme full-time and am married to my dear husband!
Wow thankyou MISTRESS ok many of us ok really do not know what others were taught but I was taught a lot of guilt about things sexual practices sincerly yours beta bottom bitch tedi thankyou for DOMINATING
Sweet tedi,
You know you are loved and accepted here, right? That you and your feelings, thoughts, beliefs, desires… are ALL normal to us. As I said, it is society that thinks people are wrong. We are not.
Thank you for writing this, sweet girl. You are awesome.
Thank You so much for sharing this post. You know how well i know the truths You speak of, both about society, and Your endless love. You have demonstrated many times over Your caring and nurturing nature to me personally and through Your use of this blog to provide information to keep us all safe. You are a beautiful woman and wonderful friend. Thanks again for caring and sharing.
That was beautiful! And you KNOW how loved you are… as are so many of my clients. Thank you for your validation of the importance of this post. It means the world to me that you would care enough to comment.
Bless you!
You are magic with words!!! This post resonates so deeply with me. You have helped me discover the true sissy inside me. Every time we talk, I realize more and more that I am so proud to be a sissy. You help me peel away the self-imposed layers of shame, and as I do, I realize the feminine self that is at my core. Thank you!!!
Oh, Sarah! I am so touched you understand what I was trying to say. Thank you so much for speaking out about your own experiences, too. I know how challenging it can be to remember the difficulties of pain and shame.
I adore you, you know that. I love that you are YOU with me! More than I can say.